Confessions of a blogger, as a teen


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Well, you know how some blogs are usually written in a way that it’s intended for people to read?
I’m pretty sure mine isn’t.

In the sense that, they are trying to convey a message to you.

I’m just talking to myself.

Yeah, it’s kinda pathetic. (but it’s the truth)

NO, I am not an anti-social geek that stays cooped up in his room whenever possible. I have a life (I think). It’s not that I do not have anyone to talk to. But, it’s these 3 things.

1. I’m not interested in what you’re saying.

2. You’re not interested in what I’m saying.

3. You can’t follow what I’m saying.

It’s usually 1 or 3. Because I’m so freaking awesome. When I strike a conversation with someone, I try to find something the other person is interested in so that, there’s something to talk about. (there’s no point trying to force your interest on someone, right?)

And to be honest I don’t really care about what you’re interested in. If it happens to be interesting, like some random funny event that happened, then sure, I’ll listen. I don’t care for your passion or anything like that if it’s different from mine. I don’t care if you want to drive or open a new business. I don’t care about what’s happening in the news.

( the exception is when I’m bored, then it really doesn’t matter if it’s something I care about or not. Just say something so that I won’t be bored )

Of course, when I finally decide to say something, I prefer to dive right in. I don’t like to dabble in the water and test the depth. More often than not, it gets very technical or philosophical.

Of course, there is no reason for you to care about how I want to change the technical design of my room, nor is there any reason for you to listen to the technical challenges I face when doing certain things. And that is precisely why I don’t say anything about those stuffs. I keep it short and concise. I’m not trying to say that “it is no business of yours”, that’s rude, I’m trying to say that “i don’t think you have to listen to me if you don’t want to”.

That’s where this blog comes in.

Because you don’t have any right to complain about what I write here.


It’s your choice to read it or not. If you like it you’ll read it, else, not. It’ll be good to have more feedback. Though, well, since I’m really just talking to myself, it’s not really that bad.

However, here’s where my concern comes in. There are actually people reading these words that I’m saying to myself! Am I supposed to be more considerate? Am I supposed to be more sensitive about certain stuffs? I mean, this is the friggin online web isn’t it?

Well, fuck it!

Naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. I’m not even going to censor the vulgarities! Where’s the fun without it?!

Back to the point, in real life, it’s not like anyone really cares if you’re happy or not. Everyone (including me), is just a self-centered bitch. As long as you’re not causing problems for the other people (or if you’re making other people happy), life goes on without your feelings considered.

EVEN THOUGH LIFE’S LIKE THAT, I still thank all of you guys from the bottom of my heart, people who read my blog on a regular basis. (posts like these, not all the videos that I put up for fun). It makes me feel that at least SOME of my feelings would not just fade away with the echoes of time.

Still, all good things must come to an end. 所谓天无不散之筵席

I wonder when I would stop blogging. It’s not really something I think I can afford to do as I gradually turn into an adult for good.

Now I know where the traffic comes from

I’ve been wondering.. how the heck did people find my blog?!


As you can see, only 50 people go to this blog like, directly. If I count the in the posts that was posted today (Cause it’s published on fb and twitter so people click on it directly).

It’s 69 in total. (coincidence I swear)

What about the rest? there’s like 76 from some other random old posts. So if I include the search terms (on wp), I’ll add in another 61. So left with 15. Well, after some searching, I finally found out the reason why.

Well, you know I’ve been participating in the postaweek/postaday challenge. And, if you go to those two addresses, you’ll actually see my blog being featured there.

Considering that,


That really REALLY makes me happy somehow ^^



Well, I’m not going to tag this post because well.. I don’t really want this conceited post to find it’s way up there somehow.

Well, it’s all good and all but there’s something that I’m a little sad about.

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Nobody reads what I write ):


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The sad face of reality.

Insomnia, ok kind of.

So it’s been some time since I had a post filed under the category of insomnia. Not that I can’t fall asleep right now. I’m pretty sure I can sleep if I bothered closing my eyes for long enough. But I just don’t feel like it yet! It kinda feels like holidays even though I’m in the midst of my exams lol.


So anyway, this vienn diagram is constructed by using google auto complete. (by some really bored guy of course. Not me)

Watching doctor who really makes me think a lot about everything around me. Not exactly in a good or a bad way. Just wondering about all the possibilities. I wish I can find someone to share this “passion” with me!

Read to the end.

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Blogging works.

It works man. No doubt about that. Thanks to the old me keeping track of what I’ve been doing or thinking, roughly anyway, I was able to see my mistakes and how stupid I was.

So yeah, I skimmed through a few posts from my old blog.

I’m genuinely surprised. I never knew that feelings can be so obvious. I realized that people can tell how I’m feeling right away. Maybe you guys know exactly how I’m feeling right now judging from how I’m writing. But man, I certainly didn’t know that, it’s going to be so naked man. It’s just. So weird when you manage to see yourself from a 3rd perspective.

Also, I learn that things change very quickly. In fact, life moves at a faster pace than I though. Like really. I’m already skimming through posts from June 2009.

I think. I should probably read the rest another day. It’s kinda making me depressed. But hey, I know I’ve tried my best. In a way or another I guess.

Insomnia, trip.

Well, it’s 1:23am right now. Which mean it’s been 1hour & 23mins since I tried to sleep.

So well, since I couldn’t, I might as well be doing something that would help me sleep. So here I am.

The main reason as to why I’m here is simple.

“I’m planning to tour Singapore, taking pictures/blog. Anyone interested to join me? Probably after Christmas & before New Years.”

Well. Tell me asap? And if there isn’t anyone I guess that’s okay too. Kind of a romantic idea to just, you know, do this kinda thing.

So yeah! Just kinda throwing it out here and seeing who’ll take it.

And with that I just probably ran out of things that I wanted to say that wouldn’t take too much effort… so.. well… I await the responses! (if there’s any)