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Well, you know how some blogs are usually written in a way that it’s intended for people to read?
I’m pretty sure mine isn’t.
In the sense that, they are trying to convey a message to you.
I’m just talking to myself.
Yeah, it’s kinda pathetic. (but it’s the truth)
NO, I am not an anti-social geek that stays cooped up in his room whenever possible. I have a life (I think). It’s not that I do not have anyone to talk to. But, it’s these 3 things.
1. I’m not interested in what you’re saying.
2. You’re not interested in what I’m saying.
3. You can’t follow what I’m saying.
It’s usually 1 or 3. Because I’m so freaking awesome. When I strike a conversation with someone, I try to find something the other person is interested in so that, there’s something to talk about. (there’s no point trying to force your interest on someone, right?)
And to be honest I don’t really care about what you’re interested in. If it happens to be interesting, like some random funny event that happened, then sure, I’ll listen. I don’t care for your passion or anything like that if it’s different from mine. I don’t care if you want to drive or open a new business. I don’t care about what’s happening in the news.
( the exception is when I’m bored, then it really doesn’t matter if it’s something I care about or not. Just say something so that I won’t be bored )
Of course, when I finally decide to say something, I prefer to dive right in. I don’t like to dabble in the water and test the depth. More often than not, it gets very technical or philosophical.
Of course, there is no reason for you to care about how I want to change the technical design of my room, nor is there any reason for you to listen to the technical challenges I face when doing certain things. And that is precisely why I don’t say anything about those stuffs. I keep it short and concise. I’m not trying to say that “it is no business of yours”, that’s rude, I’m trying to say that “i don’t think you have to listen to me if you don’t want to”.
That’s where this blog comes in.
Because you don’t have any right to complain about what I write here.
THIS IS MY SPARTAN BLOG.
It’s your choice to read it or not. If you like it you’ll read it, else, not. It’ll be good to have more feedback. Though, well, since I’m really just talking to myself, it’s not really that bad.
However, here’s where my concern comes in. There are actually people reading these words that I’m saying to myself! Am I supposed to be more considerate? Am I supposed to be more sensitive about certain stuffs? I mean, this is the friggin online web isn’t it?
Well, fuck it!
Naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. I’m not even going to censor the vulgarities! Where’s the fun without it?!
Back to the point, in real life, it’s not like anyone really cares if you’re happy or not. Everyone (including me), is just a self-centered bitch. As long as you’re not causing problems for the other people (or if you’re making other people happy), life goes on without your feelings considered.
EVEN THOUGH LIFE’S LIKE THAT, I still thank all of you guys from the bottom of my heart, people who read my blog on a regular basis. (posts like these, not all the videos that I put up for fun). It makes me feel that at least SOME of my feelings would not just fade away with the echoes of time.
Still, all good things must come to an end. 所谓天无不散之筵席
I wonder when I would stop blogging. It’s not really something I think I can afford to do as I gradually turn into an adult for good.