“There is no light without darkness.”
Well. That’s probably the main point of this entire post.
Few months ago, I wrote that I want to make myself happy.
And it’s the holidays now! So I have some time to think about things I usually don’t have time for. As usual, it’s the strangest string of events that lead me to think about this.
- Going out
- Staying home
- Doing things alone (hobby)
- Playing games with other people
- Playing games alone
- Trying something new
- Sticking to things I’m used to
Something like that. Example of hobby could be drawing photography or some geeky stuffs. And trying new things can be learning hard stuffs online or drawing on a tablet, and sticking to things I’m used to can be just using pencil and paper, or just sticking to the tech stuffs I know.
So yeah, I would say that there is SOME SORT of link between all of them.
“Well, I’m doing what I want without much stress/responsibilities right now. Am I happy?”
That thought came to my mind. If I had to choose no matter what, I guess, yeah, I’m happy.
Well… where should I start…
It all started 6 years ago. I was just a kid then, and the internet was still pretty much in it’s infancy. If I can recall, I started when I was still using a Pentium III computer. I’m not sure if WordPress was out yet, but if it was, it was probably too clunky for me to use at that time.
So I defaulted to Blogger, which most of my friends were using. (some were using livejournal, hipsters)
I started with the URL of freedomstrike@blogspot. Well, mainly because I was infatuated with Gundam Seed Destiny at that point in time. And there was this Gundam called Freedom Strike. Besides, it’s a pretty unique URL at that point in time and it was easy to remember.
So that name continued for 2 years. It wasn’t really a part of my life then. I just blogged as and when I felt like it. Though I THINK I did try to post everyday (failed pretty badly)
And then, I hit the 500th post! It was a pretty huge thing to me then, as all my post were, proper, wordy post, and not like this… kind of blog. So at the end of 2007 (November) I was thinking…
I am exposing too much personal data into the internet.
At that time, I wanted freedomstrike to get as much views as possible. So I tinkered with DNS search and how Google finds my blog and stuffs like that. When you search for freedomstrike, my blog will come up as the first result. If you search my real name, my blog will come up as the first result. Well, many many things to trick Google into thinking that my blog is some really important website.
Well, it was KIND OF a success. As my blog hits and average of 50views per day with regular peaks at around 70?
But well, that was a stupid move, so I decided to change my entire identity. For some reason, I ended up with this name x-techbiz. It became my blog url. x-techbiz@BS. Yay! It continued for another 500 posts. I renewed the blog at the end of 2009. Retaining the URL, that continued for another 182 posts. (August 22, 2010) Before I thought, well, fuck blogger.
And here I am. Now, the history of this wonderful little blog. To be fully honest, I had this URL since June 2009. I didn’t want anyone stealing my name in case I was making the switch!
If you notice, the dash – disappeared because WordPress didn’t allow it. Well, it’s a little sad but it doesn’t really make the name any easier to pronounce.
So, this blog OFFICIALLY opened at August 2010. It’s been 1 year 1 month since then. At first, I was planning to just write a lot of random online articles for the fun of it, however, one of my good friends told me that, it is pointless to do what everyone else is doing. Just remain the same, and that’ll be your style of writing.
It made perfect sense to me,
so I stuck with this until now.
From there on, I began witness the growth of this blog. Readers are starting to come back more and more often. (even though they just refuse to comment on anything). I started posting a lot of random videos that I want to share with
everyone. (or just myself).
Now, to witness the growth. The first full month, I had only 639 views.
I had 3,166 views on August. Well, it averages at roughly 100 a day. Um, I’ve got to say that I have came a long long way from that kid I was 6 years ago. the week or day view probably wouldn’t make much sense as it fluctuates a lot.
Sadly, and interestingly, I have 12 subscribers. I don’t really know what to make of it. But I’m glad that there are people who are willing to subscribe to it!
As far as comments go, much thanks to superjessleong for posting a whooping total of 408 comments! The rare people that actually make me feel like I’m not totally talking to myself. That’s more or less about it! I’m not going to bore you with all the searches and tags.
Moving on to the future.
Now that I’ve hit my goal of a thousand posts, where will I go from here? I mean, I will obviously continue to blog. But… Will it still be here on WordPress? Or will I feel like going back to Blogger? The answer is…..
Because well, we all know that relationships with ex-es will never work out. As much as Blogger has improved and proves to be a desirable blogging platform, I feel a sense of loyalty towards WordPress that has accompanied me for the past year. I’ll continue trying to improve my writing so that it’s worth reading, and the next 1000 posts,
HERE I COMEEEEEEEE!!
Please watch this video before you read my post. Or it would not make as much sense.
(I mean, if you’re going to read something as long as this, might as well just spend a little time to understand a little more about morality)
Okay firstly, I have watched the other videos up to episode 3. But for this post, I shall respond directly to this episode 1. My philosophy will still apply to the other videos I’ve watched so far. However, for the sake of simplicity. I will go with the case by case scenario with the video that I’ve posted.
This… is definitely going to be really confusing because there’s 3 stuffs that lead to this post.
1. A documentary I watched sometime ago.
2. Forgetting to go for the first paper.
3. Me walking home.
Here goes the hardest post I’m going to ever write. (because it’s going to take a heck lot of effort to link everything together)
So the documentary was about a guy who survived in the ocean for 3days. Without food or water, with no boat or whatsoever, just floating.
Basically, he was sky diving, but the plane he was on fucked up, and crashed into the ocean, they managed to jump off before the plane crashed. However, he was separated from his friends, and it’s really hard to get rid of the parachute because they’re in water. And apparently, all his friends died shortly after the jump and he was stranded all alone with nothing, literally nothing at all in the middle of the ocean.
He had no ways of communications, he had no rations, nothing. Just a chute that he had to cut away from (or he’ll get dragged down with it). He managed to find a piece of wood of some sort and clung onto it for as long as he can. But, as he floated towards what seems like land to him, he thought for very long but decided that, he had to abandon the log in order for him to swim there (too heavy). But by abandoning the log, he would lose his only support (which he had clung onto for 2days+)
Half way through swimming, he got scared, and swam back to the safety of the log. and he wasted precious energy. As time goes by, he realized that, he’s getting further and further away from the shore, and it was a do or die situation, he gathered all his courage to let go of the log, and swam as hard as he could towards the shore, but to no avail. He had given up all hope and just decided to let nature decide his fate. By some miracle, a fisherman happened to come pass and spotted him and rescued him, allowing him to live to tell the tale.
It is really really incredible, sadly I forgot what his name was.
(image by blackheartangel55)
Well, you know how some blogs are usually written in a way that it’s intended for people to read?
I’m pretty sure mine isn’t.
In the sense that, they are trying to convey a message to you.
I’m just talking to myself.
Yeah, it’s kinda pathetic. (but it’s the truth)
NO, I am not an anti-social geek that stays cooped up in his room whenever possible. I have a life (I think). It’s not that I do not have anyone to talk to. But, it’s these 3 things.
1. I’m not interested in what you’re saying.
2. You’re not interested in what I’m saying.
3. You can’t follow what I’m saying.
It’s usually 1 or 3. Because I’m so freaking awesome. When I strike a conversation with someone, I try to find something the other person is interested in so that, there’s something to talk about. (there’s no point trying to force your interest on someone, right?)
And to be honest I don’t really care about what you’re interested in. If it happens to be interesting, like some random funny event that happened, then sure, I’ll listen. I don’t care for your passion or anything like that if it’s different from mine. I don’t care if you want to drive or open a new business. I don’t care about what’s happening in the news.
( the exception is when I’m bored, then it really doesn’t matter if it’s something I care about or not. Just say something so that I won’t be bored )
Of course, when I finally decide to say something, I prefer to dive right in. I don’t like to dabble in the water and test the depth. More often than not, it gets very technical or philosophical.
Of course, there is no reason for you to care about how I want to change the technical design of my room, nor is there any reason for you to listen to the technical challenges I face when doing certain things. And that is precisely why I don’t say anything about those stuffs. I keep it short and concise. I’m not trying to say that “it is no business of yours”, that’s rude, I’m trying to say that “i don’t think you have to listen to me if you don’t want to”.
That’s where this blog comes in.
Because you don’t have any right to complain about what I write here.
THIS IS MY SPARTAN BLOG.
It’s your choice to read it or not. If you like it you’ll read it, else, not. It’ll be good to have more feedback. Though, well, since I’m really just talking to myself, it’s not really that bad.
However, here’s where my concern comes in. There are actually people reading these words that I’m saying to myself! Am I supposed to be more considerate? Am I supposed to be more sensitive about certain stuffs? I mean, this is the friggin online web isn’t it?
Well, fuck it!
Naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. I’m not even going to censor the vulgarities! Where’s the fun without it?!
Back to the point, in real life, it’s not like anyone really cares if you’re happy or not. Everyone (including me), is just a self-centered bitch. As long as you’re not causing problems for the other people (or if you’re making other people happy), life goes on without your feelings considered.
EVEN THOUGH LIFE’S LIKE THAT, I still thank all of you guys from the bottom of my heart, people who read my blog on a regular basis. (posts like these, not all the videos that I put up for fun). It makes me feel that at least SOME of my feelings would not just fade away with the echoes of time.
Still, all good things must come to an end. 所谓天无不散之筵席
I wonder when I would stop blogging. It’s not really something I think I can afford to do as I gradually turn into an adult for good.
If you have ever read through an entire Terms and Conditions then I guess. There’s only 3 possibilities. Either that you’re a lawyer, a paranoid dick, or just.. doing a dare of some sort.
So anyway, some guys decided to be a boss and translate the entire TOCs into bro-language. Something that you and I can understand rather than just some fucked up shit.
In Facebook language, it’s
About Advertisements and Other Commercial Content Served or Enhanced by Facebook
Our goal is to deliver ads that are not only valuable to advertisers, but also valuable to you. In order to do that, you agree to the following:
- You can use your privacy settings to limit how your name and profile picture may be associated with commercial, sponsored, or related content (such as a brand you like) served or enhanced by us. You give us permission to use your name and profile picture in connection with that content, subject to the limits you place.
- We do not give your content or information to advertisers without your consent.
- You understand that we may not always identify paid services and communications as such.
But they did a good job of translating it into,
About Advertisements and Other Commercial Content Served or Enhanced by Facebook
There’s no way around it – we’re going to show you some ads. But we have a vision, and that vision is that we’ll show you ads that you actually want to see. Idealistic? Yes. Downright ludicrous? Maybe. But we like to dream big:
- Sometimes we’re going to use your picture and your name in ads. Maybe we’ll tell your friends, “Hey guys! This guy over here likes this thing, shouldn’t you?” It makes people buy more shit if we trick them like that. Since we’re going to use your name and picture one way or the other, it’s probably better if you tell us how you do and don’t want it used.
- Seriously, though, we promise not to tell advertisers anything about you without your permission. See? When you get to know us, we’re not so bad.
- On the other hand, we don’t have to tell you shit, either. Sometimes you’ll see something that looks like an ad, but maybe it isn’t, and you’ll be like, “Is that an ad, Facebook?” and we’ll be like, “…Good question.”
Either way, if you haven’t read it before (like duh)
Then you should really go and check it out, so that you know, you won’t get fucked by this shit in the future.
Fuck yeah I just finished reading it.